Thoughts about future

I know I'm abit late but I've just got some time out to listen to this song --- When I was Your Man by Bruno Mars. He's like western Jay Chou. I relate both of them alright. I may not have so much stress about the coming exam but still, studying is needed. I imagine, in my mind they are like, studying when eating, when they're in the toilet, everywhere, anywhere, everytime, anytime. This makes me feel horrible lol. I'm like studying for one to two hours then I'll start to fall asleep. (Especially for the History subject) I wonder how on earth could somebody just memorize the whole (Two) textbooks in their mind and keep hold on it until the day of the exam cause you can't probably just started studying the day before the exam. It's two textbooks worth hundreds of pages man!

So I decided to just start listening to some songs again. I've talked to myself about not to touch the computer this week but how can I not? Studying for a too long period makes me more tired and I think the information in my mind will burst someday and I'm scared that I might lose all that I've memorized along this time.

Some times, it just came to me that some people thought studying for  Grade A is the most important currently. Yeah, to me, studying to get better grades is for applying for good colleges/universities. But I don't actually care to further my studies in the "pro-er" fields like to become a doctor or lawyer or something. There's graduates all around the world. Even graduates find it hard now to get a job out there because this world is needing Creativity and most of our education syllabus is just plain theory and memorize, memorize, memorize. I've also tried to relate my studies to real life. That makes it more sense for me to learn. It's such a contradiction to me that I don't care much to further my studies yet I think alot about the future. What will I be? Am I really that interested to be a baker? Will I succeed in this field? If I won't, what should I do?

I knew I've never been a creative one but I knew I can sometimes come up with a rather good idea to change things. To change someone's design to a better one. How I hoped to look into the future first before deciding things now. But I knew that when someone looks into the future, the present will never remain the same. The future remains beautiful when it continues to be a secret that we'll never know until the time has come.

So I'll say the prayers and hope for a good Today and a better Tomorrow.

-Rae.